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2023 shelf

🎸 “play with my heart strings”
sunwon au – start the new year with a bang, they said. simone (ksn) definitely thought he did, until he realized how his actions might complicate his relationship with joaquin (yjw).🛒 “at the check-out counter, we said our goodbyes”
a short #sunjay au on grocery stores, the ghosts that lingered in the aisles, and all the rotten fruits that are on the shelves.🍎 “the gods would want what we have”
a short #sunwon au on sliced apples, your soul turning tender for another, and your chest expanding to make room for one more heart.🎐 “this, too, can be mine—will be ours”
a short #sunwon au on
the bone wanting the flesh,
the flesh wanting the bone,
and the body as a whole
aching in the process.🔖 “akin ka na lang (real)”
a short #sunwon-centric au on secret operations undertaking, relationships unfolding, and the popular notion of “sila.”📲 “sakit sa ulo, sakit sa puso messaged you”
a very short #sunwon au on boys being boys in love without them wanting to know that the other’s in love (but failing to do so)🚏 “hanggang sa dulo ng mundo”
(miggy-eli) a three-tweet #sunwon au on how weekends can turn into the beginning of forever🥃 “tell me tomorrow sober what you told me tonight drunk”
a two-tweet #sunwon au on the mornings after.💬 “hangin’ wishin’ yearnin’ for some more”
a two-tweet #heejayke au on boyfriends being clingy💌 “hanggang sa panaginip nating dalawa”
(miggy-eli) a short #sunwon au on how your “deepest darkest desires” manifest in dreams (and reality).🛰 “tasting the possibility of us.”
heewon. “hearing those words from you felt like everything i ever wanted and everything that i can’t have.”👥 “buddy system”
a short sunwon au — rory (ksn) excitedly decided to join an org, and he’s not the only one looking forward to it.📄 “when you and i becomes an us”
a short sunwon au on how semantics matter🍷 “all things end”
a short sunjay au on what it means to have a favorite bottle of wine.💤 “antukin”
(miggy-eli) a one-tweet #sunwon au🍡 “three’s a crowd (and that’s not bad)”
a short sunjakewon au on work relationships and going beyond them🧣 “malamig sa 143”
(miggy-eli) a three-tweet sunwon au✨ “your one and only”
(jovi-rin) a short sunwon au wherein rin (sn) is a yearner and jovi (jw) is what they call a serial dater.🖤 “come on, baby”
a sungwon one-tweet au⌛ “happy holidays”
a one-tweet sunwon au

“my (the) world begins at a (kitchen) table”
a #sunjake drabble on boys at convenience stores, silence treated as sacred, and hearts being fed full. inspired by joy harjo's poem“sometimes, you wonder why he's still with you.”
a #heejay drabble on dining tables being battlefields, graveyards, and just a dining table. inspired by “a lover's guide to breakfast places” by gabriela lee“glide through my head, blind to fear”
a #sunwon drabble on accidentally and drunkenly (and helplessly) saying you want forever with your best friend. inspired (partially) by “amber” by 311“stomach it until you can no longer”
a short #heesun drabble on boys in love tasting decay, synonyms not being synonyms anymore, and soggy fries looking like how forever lies.“forever is the shape of you embedded on me, within me”
a #sunwon drabble on the sun seeping into your bloodstream, the idea of time as a construct, and keeping love in your pocket.“the only us that matters”
a #sunwon drabble on bedsheets that smells like you, your skin memorizing mine, and the promise that i have all i need to live a good life right here with me.“in this night, in this light”
a #sungwon drabble on meticulously-made sandwiches, standstills in space and time, and the truth in the form of a sleeping boy.“it’s just the way things are”
a #heehoon drabble on human emotions in limbo, the rusting taste of rot at the back of your throat, and wanting to not want anymore.“loving you is as human as it gets”
a #sunwon drabble on what it means to be human, what it feels to be human, & what it takes to be human—in every essence of the word.“there’s no such thing as ‘accidentally in love’—especially not with us”
a #heejay drabble on silly little human acts that make us human and how falling in love is both that and more than that—so much more.“the notes of an atheist”
a #jayke drabble on the absence and the inexistence of god, the waking world as love’s limbo, and the mercy killing of one’s soul. partially inspired by sylvia plath’s “lady lazarus”“eat your young”
a #sunwon drabble on growing bones, growing pains, and growing hearts—all taken care of by and with love.“it might be time”
a #jayhoon drabble on unsolved riddles, sacred spaces, and a crater on one’s bed in the shape of you.“here’s to us and our living room revelations”
a #sunwon drabble on friendly movie nights, its not-so-friendly implications, and seeing oneself through the eyes of one’s lover. inspired by carly rae jepsen’s “i really like you”“a lungful, a heartful, a bodyful”
a #sunwon drabble on questions unanswered, hands unclean, and two souls undone.“park jongseong & kim sunoo”
a #sunjay drabble on how to be human is to be selfish sometimes, even if one tries to be selfless.“what happens to the heart when it becomes homeless?”
a #sungwon one-tweet drabble on coming home one day only to find that your home no longer feels like your home.“what’s in a name? or whatever bullshit shakespeare said.”
a #sunwon drabble on syllables that taste like home, souls that found heaven, and sunoo having jungwon as his human.“the laws of nature”
a #jayhoon drabble on what being human and divine means, kisses that taste like knowing redemption, and hunger as a form of resurrection.“in need of a postface”
a #sunjake drabble on goodbyes tasting like metal, blood frozen with time, questions evaporating and doors closing.“in this universe, it’s us and our blood coloring the sheets purple”
a #heejay drabble on universal (personal) truths, inquiries on what is the truth, and answers in the shape of a person’s person.“to the edge and back”
a #sunwon drabble on breaking up and breaking apart and breaking out and breaking down and breaking in and the breakfast after.“like another cliché”
a #sunwon drabble on secrets under the bed, words left unsaid, and the yearning loud in jungwon’s head. based on the script’s “no words”“prophetic intimacies spelled like our names”
a #sunjake drabble on first meetings, butterfly wings, and love immemorial.“milk teeth”
sunwon. “this love’s but a newborn, so, why does it bite?” a drabble on how time unrelenting makes love relentless and remembering ruthless.“ribs”
sunwon. “(laughing till our ribs get tough) but that will never be enough.” a drabble on leaving your heart at home without knowing when you’ll be back“dear creator”
sunwon. “when love makes you cruel, who is to blame?” a drabble on monsters born by loving“take my hands, trace your lines”
sunwon. a drabble.“trust fund baby’s baby”
a heejay drabble on asking for help and the universe giving more than what you asked for.“darling, lean your weight to me”
a sunwon drabble on scheduled emails and heavy hearts“you used to love him”
a jakehoon drabble on irrational fears and the comfort of not falling.“here’s to our purgatory; our paradise, our inferno”
a heejay drabble on mornings, evenings, and everything in between.

heesun ⛅ it's the weekend, it's early in the morning, and it's raining. sun wakes up first, nestled in hee's arms. he looks up and feels his love for hee glow, lighting up the four corners of the room.sunjay 📺 “eternal sunshine of the spotless mind” is playing on the television. sun turns to jay as the ending unfolds on-screen. jay looks at sun. they wait. sun opens his mouth to speak, but jay raises his hand to cradle his cheek.jayke 🧾 jay has always had a pen and a little notepad with him wherever he goes. some say it’s romantic, but jake knows that it’s so much more.jakehoon 💙 one thing about park sunghoon is that he will do whatever it takes to make sure that sim jaeyun feels like he is loved—whatever it fucking takes..sunwon 🌊 it is saturday. sunoo lazily lounges in jungwon’s room like it was his own (to which jungwon is likely to agree). it is 28° celsius outside, and, despite the air conditioning being turned on, they still both feel the summer heat.jakewon 🧴 one thing about jake that jungwon is sure of is that he is impulsive. sometimes, he can be irrational despite his clear level-headedness, but he, at random times, can be impulsive.sunwon 🍵 the heaving finally subsided, but the throbbing lingers. sunoo is conscious that his eyes are puffy and red, his cheeks are swollen and wet, and his hands are shaking and empty—so, so, so empty.heesun 🚨 the door is closed. the windows are barred. sunoo looks at heeseung, waiting. the winds outside howl, nature is calling. “do you think we’ll be safe here?”heejay 🩸 on punishing oneself for the sins of the past and running away from the sins of the future.sunwon 🥩 on expiry dates, perished goods, expelled faith, passed on devotion, and frozen expectations & promises.heewon 🧴 on fabric detergents and shampoos that smell like heaven.jayhoon 🛋 “where do we go when we fall asleep? wherever it is, i hope it’s somewhere with you.”sunwon 🏡 on simple living, suburban loving, and everything sacred and limitless.sunwon 💌 on living in someone’s mind rent-free.sunwon 🍲 on conversations in the kitchen and a mother’s lovesunki 🚆 on how a lover deals with homesickness. inspired by rm’s “tokyo”

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2024 shelf

🎏 “growing pains”
a short sunwon au wherein iñigo loves izzy enough to go back, but not enough to stay.🎠 “the frost”
a short sunwon au on what it means to want everything and also not want something.💌 “gusto”
a short sunsun au on love poems and april fools🍥 “puyat”
a short sunjake au on misunderstandings and late-night snacks🌙 “paborito”
a short sunwon au on midnight talks and morning walks🎐 “let fate be proud”
a short sunwon au on fate, friendships, and forever🚪 “if you walk in a room...”
a one-tweet sunwon au💻 “iykyk”
a one-tweet sunwon au🎊 “balik”
(joaquin-soledad) one-shot #sunwon au on ex-lovers keeping touch and birthday reunions✈ “long-distance”
a short #jayhoon au on endearments and compliments🚗 “daan”
one-shot #jayhoon au on yearning (for something bigger) hours❤ “akai”
(joaquin-soledad) one-shot #sunwon au on ex-lovers keeping touch and meeting in bars👥 “party for two”
(miguel-angelo) one-shot #sunwon au on halloween parties and midterm papers♟ “halloween”
(joaquin-soledad) one-shot #sunwon au on ex-lovers staying in touch and matching costumes (kinda)🧤 “BFF”
one-shot #sunjake au on clingy best friends and “best friends”🛏 “the back room”
(joaquin-soledad) one-shot #sunwon au on ex-lovers in hotel rooms and the beginning of their end🥠 “all the love”
one-shot #sunjake au wherein sunoo is in denial, jake is a little confusing, and jay is tired of fixing up their mess for them.🚪 “kapitbahay”
(iñigo-blue) one-tweet #sunwon au wherein blue has a crush on the boy who lives in the unit with his birthday. fate? he thinks so (and so does iñigo)!☁ “alaga”
(kyle-erin) one-shot #sunwon au wherein erin forgets, but kyle is always there to remind him (and erin likes to make a romance out of it).🍵 “plot twist”
(jules-san) one-shot #sunwon au on christmas eve eves and shooting your shot🚏 “uwi”
(kyle-erin) short #sunwon au on going home for the holidays and being home.

“your body, my chapel”
a jayke drabble on saving one’s saving grace“who’s coming?”
a short heejay drabble on ambulances getting stuck in traffic“love you right”
a sunwon drabble“you bite hard enough and make him bleed, and in return, he stains you whole.”
a jayhoon drabble

sunsun 🛋 do you think we’ll make it?sunwon 🎱on never moving on and never wanting to

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2025 shelf

🎇 “happy new year”
(miguel-angelo) one-shot #sunwon au on welcoming the year with a little love🏠 “my love”
one-shot #heejay au on missing home🚬 “pass me the light”
wherein, in the middle of the night, jungwon needed a light and, in the silence of the smoking area, found sunoo🚪 “match my freak”
sungwon short au – jungwon misses his boyfriend a little too much.🍛 “brunch”
(kyle-erin)wherein erin has morning classes and kyle makes sure he’s fed

sunwon 🤲🏻 jungwon doesn’t know what to do with his hands whenever sunoo is around.